yo all. sick of seeing the sickly post and so shall push it down by updating :D
so ya. much much better these days alrd. still in the slack mode though. now last minute chionging 2 bio essays before midnight (dateline!) although not compulsory cuz I passed my bio, but still, must keep improving!

sigh. knew abt sth. but kinda helpless about it.
Actually I have this belief, that no matter what is said to a person, no matter how encouraging, how blood-stirring, no matter the speaker is someone who matters alot; as long as the person listening does not change his/her attitude, whatever is being said would not have any lasting impact, or even have any impact at all.
ok. this chunk is random "/

hahaa. just received a phone call. cant say who. (shhh!) but was so amused by it that I changed my pm to "in the centre of happenings with none of it happening to me. sigh. 青春啊青春~" lol. haix. but I must admit IM BORED.

ROAR~ BEING UNWELL IS TOTALLY HORRIBLE. GOT LESSONS TOMORROW SOMEMORE. -.-"
HEAD~ACHE GO AWAY, PLEASE DON'T EVER COME AGAIN~

ah. crap. wo sheng bing le :( start of holidays somemore. booo.
whew. survived the PTC. must be really lucky that day manz. and I only then realised that Mrs Ashari is my mentor. xD lol.
feeling giddy~ shall not say much.

I never believed in what I couldn't see

once again, fantastic episode of FTLY :D when xinyi said 'zaijian' to cunxi that part is so sad D: and qiaoen's acting skills are really great.
anw. Wish to see you again ended. new show coming up by Joe! saw the previews and were ROFL xD. watch out for it ppl. it's called 蜂蜜幸运草. shall upload one of the pic that makes me go LOL.

lol. so funny xD

click this link to go watch the preview!!

sigh. he just don't get the fcking point. *knocks head repeatedly against the wall*

shall ke zhi my feelings for now.
i shall just say one sentence.
when can I don't have to face this.
fcked up life.

emotional hurt tends to lead to physical hurt.

amazing how hormonal changes affect one so much.
basically, most likely due to my xiao hong coming, I have been experiencing serious mood swings - tearing at every report about the 5.12 earthquake, started crying in the midst of a phone call, etc. geez. D:

anw. was feeling 忿忿不平 after hearing Mrs Lim talk bout the cyclone Nargis in Myanmar. A cyclone swept past and so many people are on the verge of dying but could be saved if aid arrived fast enough, and the junta refused aid from other countries?! Insisted that it's a holiday and refused to give out visas, now also. wth is that. the foreign aid could have saved so many more lives. some more insisted they want the supplies but not the people, just so they can monopolize the supplies and channel them to the military to keep them happy, and so that they can grip on to their power. wtf is this man. won't they feel the weight of countless lives hanging on their conscience? won't they toss and turn in their beds at night, haunted by nightmares? or are they so power-hungry that the suffering of the people does not matter? even till now the death toll, actual happenings in the disaster area are unknown, as the military has set up checkpoints to keep foreigners out of the disaster zone. ..... ARGH. >.<++

让我们红尘做伴活得潇潇洒洒

I need to break out of the emo wall that is building around me before it suffocates me.

My battle Plan: Me v.s. EMO
Destroying EMO with Friends'encouragement-happiness-willpower-,etc.

K.O.

wahahahah. lol. sorry for the spastic pictures.
seriously, I will try to be fine de, but thanks anyway dear all, for showing that you care. sry lor, I admit that Im superficial, I need to see/feel that you care, even if you care you don't let me know, then how i know?? xD

to one of my zui ai de ren:
don't worry too much about me. sorry I didnt reply to your sms when you ask me to SMILE,etc. I was really touched. But I didn't know how to express that, and I also don't want to give some perfunctory answer. so zai zhe li, I want to say that I really really appreciate all the smses you sent me :D and I know that you also may not be feeling v.okay recently. so let's jiayou tgt, k? love ya lots!

If you need someone you're feeling blue
But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder

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P.E. was fun.
Mac Breakfast rawks.
Was high for some periods of time.
Was feeling low way down to the bottom at others.

my apologies/thanks:
To mm. no matter that you keep insisting that you are fierce, I still think you are nice! one of the best teachers ard :)
To wen. sry cant pei you have lunch :(

my thanks:
To huix. for comforting me when I need a shoulder :) and for ba wo fang zai xin shang and made the effort to call me to make sure Im fine. i was touched that you cared.
To nadia. for making the effort to come my class just to tell me that you won't be able to accompany me after school. and thus not letting me wait like a idiot for others like last time.
To aneesh, ganesh, chiachiu, nigel, yuxiang. for the many words of encouragement :D, concern, and the restrain in bastarding. xD
To those who smsed me and let me feel that maybe I do matter to some. It may seem like ju shou zhi lao to you all, but it means a lot to me that my friends actually make the effort to know whether I'm dead or alive, to know if I'm alright and do worry about me. :)

to those who are concerned: I did cry, and I took a long bus ride alone, and then Im fine alrd. dun worry. I very strong de :D
to those who don't give a damn: you probably don't even make the effort to know whether I'm dead or alive so probably won't see this anyway. lalala~

thanks for all the encouragement ppl :D
though the guys sometimes bastard ppl alot but they actually not so bad laa. they at least wont hurt another person intentionally. :)

how do you say something that is a fact and is hurting and you know that the person at the receiving end would not take it easily? just don't say it. but that's deception isn't it? ah crap. >.<

wah. realised that I missed my friends lots when I saw them today o.O hahaa.

today played some blindfold thingy and group 3 won! xD
then got this graphic calc thingy. then I did sth and took a pic of it but I lazy upload now. Shall upload next time ^^

Simply loves Fated to Love You!! this ep Dylan totally rawks. ai si ta le. but anna coming back next ep... and from the preview, cunxi is gonna be a damn bastard to xinyi again..T.T
Rolling Love is starting to warm up! (although at a very slow rate) but wish that the plot can progress faster...
Wish to See You Again ending next week. finally can get the show over and done with. lucky they know to not to drag the script any longer. but dunno what show after tt sia.

okay. I was totally stunned and mortified when I logged on to my Flixster account.

I actually created an account and my username is SCHNAPY. @_@ omg. i must have been desperate then. x( *covers my face. this is so diu lian!!!~~~~

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feel like watching Accuracy of Death and Made of Honor...

to buyaomawo:
thanks for the concern but you don't tell me who you are how I know who to find?? -.-
----
anw. just for the general information. i guessed who the hell is buyaomawo liao. =.=

Stronger - Britney Spears
hush, just stop there's nothing you can do or say,
baby i've had enough
i'm not your property as from today, baby
you might think that i won't make it on my own but now
i'm chorus stronger than yesterday
now it's nothing but my way
my lonliness ain't killing me no more
i'm.. stronger
end chorus
that i ever thought that i could be,
baby i used to go with the flow
didn't really care 'bout me
you might think that i can't take it,
but you're wrong cause now
i'm… but now
i'm chorus stronger than yesterday
now it's nothing but my way
my lonliness ain't killing me no more
i'm.. stronger come on, now oh, yeah
here i go, on my own i don't need nobody,
better off alone here i go, on my own now
i don't need nobody, not anybody here i go,
alright, here i go but now
i'm chorus stronger than yesterday
now it's nothing but my way
my lonliness ain't killing me no more
i'm.. stronger
stronger than yesterday
now it's nothing but my way
my lonliness ain't killing me no more
chorus stronger than yesterday
now it's nothing but my way
my lonliness ain't killing me no more
i'm.. stronger

you might as well had dump a bucket of cold water over me.
I mean, fine. Im not on the list for most-sought-out-for-going-out-on-weekends cause of my hse restrictions. and that's perfectly fine. I mean I got used to not being even asked. so that part is fine.
but you don't come and sms asking me whether I had any plans and when I replied, you don't even have the courtesy to say sorry, but I've made other plans. And you just ignored my message? And i've got to find out the next day by reading the blogs of you few, gushing about what a wonderful and fun day it had been for you?

do you know that everytime I read the blog posts of you few about you all going out and having fun and I don't even know about it until i read it, it's like a stab to my heart?

*slaps myself*

It's Bliss.
It's MOS Seafood Kakiage Rice Burger.

okay. (points upwards) that was random xD

wah. these whole week every night got dreams sia. all school-related o.O
now mind is in a total blank. @.@
shall post again when I feel more sane.

anw. whos buyaodawo ? I swear wo bu hui da ni, cuz I realised that it's quite true xD

DORAEMON IN ANG MO KIO

haha. damn cute.
actually I want take pic with it de :( but need to buy $10 worth of stuff to get the 2 magnets to take pic with it. so ya. and anw. I found out that his sister is called DOREMI. xD



lol. found these 2 winter apparel in my room xD

it's so amazingly euphoric when you tried so hard and finally at some n times u actually got what u want. hao kai xin~~

yay. got my specs. shall look intellectual and maybe the look will rub off on me and maybe I will be smarter in the process xD

hee. xiao diao liao~~

damn tired. as usual, even if got stuff also cnt blog. :X so ya.
...
O! have sth! haiyo it's like this. cuz I havent finished studying SS ytd so decided to wake up at 3plus to study. but as usual, my subconsious mind will just switch of the alarm and I would go back to sleep. but I got nightmare! :X I dreamt that the HCL paper ends at 430pm and I woke up at 420pm which means I totally missed the paper. The nxt paper is SS and it starts at 430pm until 6plus (dun ask me why, dreams are illogical). but then got another person suddenly appear. apparently he's also late xD
....
I know that's random.
*knocked out*
...
*wakes up again*
shall post some photos.

doodles done by me (1)doodle done by me (2)
doodle done by me (3)

love these 2 cars. damn shuai.
scenic view of Bedok Reservoir Park
hee. two girls attempting to 'fish'

a very deceiving pic of me and huix. xD

Job done.

*knocked out again*