适合

但最適合的人，還需要最適合的時間、最適合的地點。光是人適合，一點用處都沒有。
- 《驯夫记》

Silence

沉默 是不愿意敷衍 还是已不想挽回？

圣诞

昨天是和2/1 clique一年一度的圣诞聚会
噢哟 我不得不说
圣诞最赞的部分就是满载而归的感觉
（虽然这次有一半是我的生日礼物==）
就不一定要多贵之类的
可就是有很多来自不同的人的不一样的礼物
超爽的~

==

唉 恋爱就是应该被祝福的啊
人家才刚在一起两个星期
就让他们享受热恋期嘛
干嘛都一副看衰的样子说以后就不会这样了
虽然那的确是普遍会发生的事
但我觉得只要那恋情不是detrimental的
那你就let them be and let things run its course
保持着neutral if not 祝福的态度不就好了~
毕竟每个人都不一样
碰到的人也不一样
随之产生的故事也都会不一样
适用在100个人身上的模式不一定适用在那101th人的身上
所以不要那么Stereotype~

幼稚

去唱了6个小时的歌~
久违的Wen的天籁 <3
就会点一堆歌然后说“你唱”
我是她的音饭~
基本上大家一起唱着唱着
就会变成静静地听她的歌声 xD

今年与其说是圣诞节
感觉比较像是圣诞季节
因为activities 都是spread over 这两个星期

在想要买什么礼物给大家的时候
发现自己处于尴尬的阶段
已经不会像以前一样做一些手工
倒不如说是不敢吧
曾经觉得能够表达心意的东西
现在不敢送人 觉得会让人嫌幼稚
想去买一些小礼物
但全部加起来也不便宜 /.\

这也让我想起以前的自己
以前的自己 我承认
和现在大家看到的我不一样
以前就不知道
人
不是说你对他好
他就一定开心
满腔的热情
以细心贴心的礼物
时时刻刻的关心
绝对义气相挺的诺言表达
但是如果对方并不想要/需要这等好意
他们只会因为觉得无法reciprocate
而觉得内疚
这样反而造成困扰了

怎么说呢
应该是说我没办法拿捏吧
我喜欢你我爱你我欣赏你
我就会本能地 想要对你好 想和你亲近
经过思量的举动我不喜欢 因为很刻意
不过 不经思量的举动反而造成别人的困扰了吧

像有些人对于我的skinship不舒服
有些人对于我偶尔的撒娇觉得做作
我有察觉到的
其实虽然不表现出来
可是
在别人的眼里
我这些举动有了另一番解读
我是真的很难过的

唉 突然好无力
不说了

再次出发

整理了心情又决定继续blog
<- 左边那图是我自己用google translate然后自己制作出来的东东哦
翻译有错不关我的事~

本来很有心情好好写一写的……
结果……
不说了。

Ache

oh my tiannnnn
I'm like aching all over >.<
think I pulled my thigh muscles and arm muscles during NAPFA 5 stations.
CRAP and I can't get my Gold T^T
boooooooo sadded.
Why my NAPFA results like my O Levels one.
I'm always very good at sth then very bad at something else.
Ran 2 rounds for 2.4km and the drizzle escalated to a pour.
Thank god we don't have to continue running~
Sucks having to run 2.4km with pulled muscles you seeeeee
And I'm getting a cold from running in the rain @@

But I...

I may be bochap, I may be heartless, I may be cold, I may be inconsiderate;
But I never meant to hurt, I never meant to cause pain, I never meant to cause distress.
But if that was what you feel, then I apologize.

刚在厕所跌了个四脚朝天==
幸亏及时抓到旁边的栏杆不然就要撞到头了
不幸中的大幸 /擦汗

可能在节食的关系
现在比以前更容易晕眩
以前至少要是坐着一段时间 起来才会晕
现在只是坐了一下 站起来就晕了
应该是缺糖了吧~

星期一要到了
我的苦日子终于可以过了
应该会持续要减肥
但至少可以慢慢来
偶尔的放纵自己也可以

明天去打工
已经买好一串香蕉当我一天的粮食咯

okay
suddenly bored.
ciao.

Wahhhhhhhh
DAMN SIANNNNNNNNNNN
There goes my thought of getting into NBS.
Wheyever you must have a good A-Math grade to get in?!
Holy crapppppp
And fine, you can take the entrance exams if you don't have A-Math, but bloody hell the reason I dropped A-Math was because I wasn't good at it. And it's not like I suddenly can answer questions on functions, graphs, integration and god knows what at this point in time rightttttttttttt
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Is there a place where I can go scream my lungs out and throw things around so that I can keep some strands of my sanity and continue acting like I'm normal?

突然想起以前看过的一篇王道文
里边有一句话类似是：“我消失在他的未来里-他的未来没有我。”
这句话是其中一个人在叙述他做的一个恶梦。

我觉得the concept of 消失在你在乎的人/重视的人/喜欢的人的未来里
很难受 很难过

就这样~

I understand doesn't mean I like it.

我想要好好发个呆。

看了《那些年，我们一起追的女孩。》
大爱~
等hype平息下来后去买discounted的小说^^

话说看到一个预告让我还蛮想看的
庄米雪演马来西亚人搞笑到~

我也是飘洋过海来的。虽然是搭bus。不过还是有过海。就过那个causeway。

笑到~~~~~

每个人都有那不愿承认的在乎。
好像一说出口就输了一样。

So sick and bored of doing tutorials >.<

And honestly last thu and fri were nightmares. I shudder at the memory of it. Those two days were the worst I had exprienced in my entire poly life T^T

默契的“不简单”
<3

呵
so what？
life goes on.

我变了……吗？

看着朋友喝酒
看她笑着笑着就哭了
边笑着边把眼泪擦掉
我也只能借个肩膀给她靠
美好的假象破灭的时候总是难受的
哭过就好了

我也想喝酒了~

没有食欲。。。
吃了也食之无味。。。
一空下来心就好痛。。。好空。。。
最痛的不是失恋。。而是我把心给你的时候你却在欺骗。。。

心很痛呐……

woo went clubbing with my sisters yesterday night xD

Read this tweet on weibo..
Saying that during earthquake evacuation period, if you get thirsty on the streets, the vending machines are FOC;
hungry, the convenience stores are FOC;
tired, the supermarts are opened for you to seek refuge;
lonely, the public phones are FOC;
don't understand Japanese, the TV stations uses Chinese to tell you how to evacuate.

I must say I'm impressed, and respect these efforts by the Jap govt.

Was happy that YAMI Yogurt opened an outlet in AMK Hub.
Then seconds later I rmb that, crap, I'm going off to China for 6 months T^T
It better stay open until I come back!!

Hohohoho
Counting down counting down~

I'm feeling cold even in Sngapore...
How am I going to survive in Shanghai T^T
Collated a bunch of places to go~
I'm gonna stock up on books and clothes~
gogogogogogogogo

Everytime I start to feel a bit sad that I'm going to Shanghai for 6 months soon, my dad will do+say something that is annoying ttm and I can't wait to fly off like asap.

开朗的人……往往因为有个幸福的家庭……

希望大家可以拿到理想的成绩~~

去上海的日子在倒数中了……

我快呕血了
追电视剧就是酱~
为什么女一跟男二和男一跟女儿的戏份多到这种地步~~
你就让我好好看看男女主角在一起的情节好不~
而且不要整天两人在争吵~~~
真的要吐血了了了了了

这两个星期因为有些天要和朋友出门
所以只好掰说还在上学
其它的日子依然得照时间出门
也懒得一直约朋友
他们也大多在做工

所以就一个人全岛趴趴走
除了去FarEast那一次冲昏头
买了鞋子和衣服
其它时候倒没买食物以外的东西
真的除了bugis和FarEast
真的很难找到看上眼的衣物

Anyway
因为时间变挺多的
所以去了一些平时不去的地方
去了Jurong Point，West Mall，Toa Payoh，Kovan等
不过到最后很容易变成宅在那里的图书馆啃书

话说那天去了Kinokuniya
买了最新一本的《彩云国物语》
看着整排20本好想全部买下来T^T
希望上海卖得便宜~让我愿望成真~
当然还有蝴蝶seba的书~

嗨~
钱钱钱~
好烦啊
口说容易~
真的要付钱一个两个就在叽里咕噜
烦啊烦
还是我老妈最好T^T

The Story Only I Didn't Know
How amusing was it for you?

Nothing lasts forever. Nothing really matters.
---"Cruel Fairytale"

请你接受这个事实 我不爱你了

哇贱男人~
哇 我看《犀利人妻》看到快气到吐血了
而且我是直接14集没看前面还没投入感情都快气翻了

因为这集刚好是结婚了10年的夫妻 男的摊牌要离婚
外遇对象还是老婆的妹妹（还是表妹？不清楚） T.T
这什么世道啊~

WanTing's Birthday~
Just da two of us~
Reminds me of when WanTing had to pass her time before German class.
Lol.
Also the two of us.
Happy Birthday!
Though I still don't get your fascination with night views ._.

IT'S SO FLUFFY I'M GONNA DIE

Forgot to eat my dinner T^T

In the worst shit ever.

5 exams next week.

Only finished revising one of the modules once.

What have I been doing the past few dayyyyyyyyyyyyyssssss~

So soon after the previous time I got sick, I am hereby sick again. And I still have 2 days of tuition D:
crappppppppppppppppppp

WTF I ONLY HAVE ONE WEEK THAT IS CNY WEEK TO STUDY FOR MY EXAMS!? EXAMS FOR 5 DAYS STRAIGHT?!FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

EDIT: OKAY I'VE DECIDED TO NOT TO ATTEND ANY GATHERINGS UNTIL MY EXAMS ARE OVER. THAT IS, UNTIL 12 FEB. THEN I WILL MEET EVERYBODY FOR A MONTH THEN FLY OFF TO SHANGHAI ON 13 MAR. SEE YOU THEN.

My P1 student made me so pek cek that I snapped the pencil in front of him. Wah Piang seriously testing my patience. Roarr.

I am a lazy person. So let me laze. Why I need to edit so many reports T^T

「……亲情真的很暴力。」
-《上邪之我的魔兽老爸》蝴蝶seba

Had 4 hours straight of tuition @~@ Was okay until the last 1 1/2 hr with a Primary 1 kid. o-m-g. Seriously testing my patience. I almost flipped the table, throw the pencil and tore the papers. I really cannot tahan kids 8years old and below. sigh. Must think of my salary my salary my salaryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

Give me patience and give me strength.

Didn't know that I have tuition this morning cause it wasn't in the schedule given to me and was waken by the call from tuition center == Now I have 6 students in 5 different sessions every week >.<

Yesterday went for a random trip with nana,lili, and xiaobao. And the most memorable thing of the day is the fight between two 路人at bugis street xDDDD And I saw and heard what happened right from the start cause they were directly behind us. LOL. "不要动手动脚！” And omg I didn't know Pastamania got student discount until 30%! damn hua suan.

Yesterday amist all the tvxq drama I suddenly remembered the lyrics “你我都走散了” Don't know the truth of it all and it's not my business, but I thought it's sad that comrades in battle who were together for so long while realising their dream lost each other like that. Ah well.

Back to chionging my parts for 4 projects now~

I should update.

Woo it's the end of 2010 already.
and I suddenly feel like posting in chinese o.o

对我来说并不是特别特殊的一年
朋友还是那几个
依然单身
想法也没啥变化
也没有突然致富之类的

只是别人口中的我从“淡然+看破红尘”发展为“冷漠+恶势力”
歹势~
不过还是很谢谢我理工学院的朋友
因为一些家里因素
我很讨厌人家叫我改变我比较淡的性格 要求我有热情活泼的样子
而你们即使口上整天讲我很冷漠
但你们还是接受这样的我
不跟我计较 也不曾要求我改变
（好吧 一部分也是你们怕我xD）
不过我知道你们很爱我
Thanks for making me feel loved and remembered. Saranghae ♥

还有那位可能不是很看得懂华文的挚友
And to the dear friend that may not understand chinese very well
维持一段“远距离”友情不容易
to maintain a "long distance" friendship is not easy
但一直来你都会和我保持着联络甚至抽空和我见面
but you have always been keeping in contact and even take the time to meet me
我很感谢你有心事仍然会和我分享
I'm very thankful that you still share your secrets with me
虽然我没有办法分担你心里的苦痛
Although I can't take your pain and make it mine
但我希望你借着发短讯给我至少可以抒发一些心情好过一些
but I hope that at least by smsing me you will feel better letting it out of your chest
Be your best friend yeah I'll love you forever ♥

Things to look forward to in 2011~
- Super Show 3!!!!!!!
- Internship in Shanghai (I can finally be freeeeeeeeeee~)