Just some thought

I was trying to think, why do I feel more subjected to qualms of loneliness then I did before, even though now I have Facebook, weibo,qq, etc. I am so much more contactable then, well, before i had all those accounts. Maybe it's because with the existence of those accounts, it meant that whoever wants to contact me could, and that's why when i see that nobody contacted me via these channels simply reminds me of the stark truth nobody thought of me and wants to contact me. The constant absence of notifications is the constant reminder that the whole world continued on it's axis without you, you are not missed, you are not needed, you are not irreplaceable. And I think it's this 认知that sucks.